Chapter 1.
Debbie Bruner Bontrager sat at the dinner table at the Baker Apple Orchard, pleased that everyone in the room knew about her baby. She could breathe again. Her life had totally transformed from a few weeks ago.Â
Looking around at the faces of the family members, she could tell she was surrounded by people who cared about her. Tonight, Samuel and Ada were guests for the evening meal as they so often were.
After everyone had filled their plates from the bowls in the center of the table, Favor helped herself to an extra piece of fried chicken. âIâm excited youâre having a baby, Debbie.âÂ
Before Debbie could say anything, Onkel Levi said, âIâm going to write a stern letter to my brother telling him what I think about the way he handled things.â Levi had been delighted when he found out Debbie was expecting a baby. He wasnât happy to learn his brother and sister-in-law had advised Debbie to keep quiet about her brief but legal marriage to the late John Bontrager.Â
Wilma agreed with him about the letter. âIâm happy youâre doing that, Levi, because they shouldnât have made Debbie keep this whole thing a secret. It could very well have ruined her life.â
âYouâre right, Mamm.â Hope nodded.Â
Debbie sat there, smiling. Not that she wanted her parents to get a stern letter from Onkel Levi, but her folks would finally see the situation from her side⊠she hoped. Either way, she wouldnât have to give up her baby.
She looked down at her growing belly.Â
The baby still wouldnât have a father, and sheâd be living in someone elseâs home, but this was her home for now. If God was gracious, He would find her another husband, and it wouldnât be a secret marriage. She should never have agreed to that even if John had insisted it wouldnât be a secret for long.Â
Ada said, âWeâre all very excited to have you here, Debbie. And Wilma, there will be another baby in this very haus. How wunderbaar is that?â
âJah, I know. As soon as I get back from helping with Mercy and Honorâs second babies, youâll be about due, Debbie. Just as well I made so many baby clothes.â
âThank you once again, everyone, for being so welcoming.â
âOf course we are. Youâre family, after all,â Wilma said.Â
Ada patted Wilmaâs shoulder. âGott is blessing your family.â
âI know. There will be babies everywhere. Weâll turn the sewing room into a nursery. Thatâll be perfect since itâs the room next to yours, Debbie. We donât really need to use that room as the sewing room. We can move everything to another room.â
Debbie was overwhelmed with how everyone was trying to make her comfortable. âYou donât need to do that. I can keep the baby with me. I donât want anyone to be put out.â
âThe baby might be fine in your room at the start, but what about when it gets older? It canât stay with you forever.â
As lovely and thoughtful as it was, Ada's comment made Debbie think they all expected her to live there forever. But sheâd get married again at some point; couldnât they all see that? Peter White had already offered his assistance in that department. Over the past few weeks, sheâd often wondered if she shouldâve taken him up on his offer. Then, she would have a completely new beginning, and her baby would have a father.
Perhaps next time Peter asked her to marry him, it would be for a very different reason. It would be out of love, not a sense of duty, or helping her out of a situation. Or maybe Peter would grow tired of waiting for their romance to blossom. She hadnât given him a no to his proposal. It was more of a ânot yet.â At least, that was how she thought sheâd answered.
Levi cleared his throat. âI have an announcement to make. We are opening the shop from next week forward. Everyone must do her part in making sure itâs fully stocked, so you ladies will need to get busy in the kitchen making the apple goods. I want two people in the shop all the time. Hope, you can work out who will do what.â
âWhat hours will we open?â she asked.
âSame as last year, between ten and four. Whoever is working in the shop will work in the orchard between seven and nine-forty-five. Then they can go straight to work at the shop. Then finish at four. What does everyone think about that? Iâll help out when anyone needs a break.â
âSounds like a good idea, Dat.â Bliss clapped her hands. âI canât wait. I love working in the shop.â
âYeah, it sounds okay.â Cherish looked at Hope. âDonât forget Iâm working at the cafĂ© on Tuesdays, so donât have me doing anything on Tuesdays, Hope.â Cherish was quick to get that out there. It was good to get out and be treated as an individual and not just as one of the Baker girls... the youngest one.Â
âOkay, Iâll remember,â Hope told her. âLevi, I do have my things to sew for the wedding. With working in the orchard during the day and cooking at night, where am I supposed to find the time for it? Iâm not meaning to be rude. Iâm just feeling a little overwhelmed with everything.â
âIâll help you with your sewing,â said Ada.
Hope whipped her head around to face Ada. âWould you?â
âOf course I will. I can help right up until the time I go up north with your mudder.â
âThat would be wunderbaar. I forgot you and Samuel were going to Connecticut with Mamm.â
âThatâs right, and weâre bringing Luke back with us.â Ada looked around at all the girls, smiling.
âYou mean Matthew?â Hope asked.
Ada rolled her eyes. âOh, thatâs right. He wants to be known by his middle name now. Thatâs Matthew with two Ts. I keep forgetting to remember that. He says Matthew is more who he is.â
Cherish held her breath. âHeâs staying with you, isnât he?â
âJah, he stayed with us last time, and heâll stay with us again. Donât worry, Cherish. He wonât be bothering you.â
Cherish was relieved to hear it, but if Matthew wasnât going to be bothering her, who was Ada setting her matchmaking eyes upon? Looking around at the single women at the table, she noted that Debbie was a little old for him and Favor was too young. That left Bliss, but Bliss was in love with Adam Wengerd. Everyone knew that. Or did Ada have a long-range plan to marry Favor and Matthew off in a few years when they were both older? That made perfect sense.Â
Her thoughts were confirmed when Cherish caught Ada looking at Favor with a certain glint in her eyes.Â
Favor was munching on a chicken leg with no idea what was going on, but Cherish knew Favor found Matthew just as annoying as everyone else did. Ada would end up disappointed if that was her plan.
Mamm turned to Debbie and took hold of her hand. âYou must write to Johnâs parents and tell them everything. No good comes from hiding things. Believe me. The truth will always come out in the end, and you will look bad for keeping the secrets.â
Cherish looked on at their clasped hands in disbelief. Mamm never held anyoneâs hand. She wasnât affectionate in that way. Why was she being like that with Debbie?Â
âIâve put it off for long enough, youâre right. I plan to do that tonight, Aunt Wilma. Iâve already warned my parents I was going to tell Johnâs parents. Maybe they told them already, Iâm not sure. I donât want another secret again in my life. Itâs been far too stressful for me.â Debbie looked away from Wilma and stared across the table at Cherish.
Cherish didnât know why she was staring at her so hard until she remembered her mother still didnât know about Christinaâs baby news. When Christina broke her baby news to them, she said they could tell their mother, but at the time, the girls agreed it should come directly from Christina. From the look on Debbieâs face, keeping the secret from Wilma was playing on her mind. There was only one thing to do. âChristina is having a baby too,â Cherish blurted out.Â
Mamm let go of Debbieâs hand and stared at Cherish. âDonât say that, Cherish. Itâs cruel.â
âYes, Cherish,â Ada agreed. âYou must think of her feelings before you spread these rumors. If word gets back to Christina, sheâll be devastated. You should send her to her room for that, Wilma.âÂ
âItâs true,â Cherish insisted.Â
âNee. You must be wrong.â Mamm shook her head. âIâve a good mind to wash your mouth out with soap.â
Hope spoke up, âNee, Mamm. Cherish is right. We didnât say anything because we had hoped Christina would tell you herself. Thatâs why we kept quiet. We heard it out of her own mouth.â
Wilma looked away and breathed out heavily. âAfter all this time⊠Itâs nothing short of a miracle.â
âThatâs what Christina said.â Cherish was annoyed that they had refused to believe her until they heard it from Hope. Why did they think so poorly of her? Cherish waited for an apology from Ada or her mother, but she wasnât surprised when none came.Â
Wilma touched her chin. âThe baby will be my step-grandchild. And yours will be my grandniece or nephew by marriage, Debbie. Just like Iris. No, wait. Not like Iris, because Iris is my step-grandchild.â
Cherish frowned at her mother. She always had to define and name every relationship. Why couldnât she just say Debbieâs baby would be a grandniece or nephew? She always had to point out that these babies werenât directly related to herself. Maybe the only babies she truly loved were Honorâs and Mercyâs.
Wilma continued, âStill, Iâll love them just as much.â
âWell, thatâs good to know,â Cherish said.Â
Wilma turned to her best friend. âWhat do you think about that, Ada? Christina and Mark having a baby.â
âIâm shocked, but simply delighted for them.â
Hope added, âChristina said we could tell you and Ada, but she wants both of you to keep it quiet.â
âI understand. We can do that, but you shouldâve told us immediately. Sheâll think we know and havenât even bothered to visit her and share in her excitement.â
âWe should visit her as soon as we can, Wilma.â
âJah, we will. Weâll go together.â
Hope looked over at Samuel and Levi. âNeither of you heard it either. You must keep quiet.â
âWe will,â Samuel said.
âEveryone knew this before I did?â Mamm asked, staring at each of her daughters in turn.Â
âOnly because we told them,â Cherish said. âChristina said I could tell, just as long as no one tells anyone else.â
Ada shook her head. âIt seems Christina doesnât need to do a thing in regard to announcing her news because youâll flap your gums, and soon everyone in the community will know.â
Mamm sniggered at Adaâs comment.
âIâm only telling family,â Cherish said, "and Christina said I could."
Ada sat tall, lifting her chin. âIâm glad Iâm considered family.â
âOf course you are. Youâre here all the time,â Cherish said.
Hope stifled a laugh at Cherishâs remark, and Levi nearly choked on his apple juice.
âOn a different subject," said Wilma, "Cherish has been jabbering on about us all making that quilt. We need to make a start on it so Hope can have it for her wedding. Tomorrow, Ada is helping me cut out the fabric.âÂ
Hope looked around. âDenke, everyone for doing this. I'm so looking forward to having this beautiful quilt.â
âYes, and it will be beautiful once we finish it. And we will finish it because I didn't buy all that fabric to go to waste.â Mamm gave a nod.
âDenke, everyone for doing this,â Favor said, mimicking Hope.Â
Everyone stared at Favor. Mamm was the one to ask, âWhat's the matter with you?â
âNothing.â Favor looked down.Â
âAre you still annoyed about Krystal not being allowed to stay at our haus?â Levi asked.
âNo. Well, yes. It's just that everyone gets everything done for them except for me. When was the last time you heard me thank anyone for anything? No, because no one does anything for me. I was practicing saying thank you for the imaginary time someone does something nice for me.â
Levi drew his eyebrows together. âWhat about when we had your pen pal stay here for months?â
âYou didn't actually allow me to have her. I told her she could come.â
Wilma said, âWell, Levi and I could've sent her straight back, and we didnât. We allowed her to stay.â
Ada leaned across the table and stared at Favor. âThe question is, when have you done something nice for someone else? Youâre sounding selfish. Youâll understand when youâre older that doing things for other people will bring you happiness.â
âStop being so jealous all the time,â Hope told Favor. âEveryone should enjoy everyone else's good times and be happy for them. Your time to get married will come and weâll all be happy for you.â
Once again, Favor looked down. With her fork, she pushed the chicken bones around. âNo one understands.âÂ
âI do,â Mamm said. âYouâre getting exactly like Joy, feeling left out all the time. Itâs silly.â
Cherish knew that wasn't a good thing for Mamm to say because now someone would tell Joy what Mamm said about her and then more trouble would brew.
Hope agreed, âYes, and you're not even the middle child.â
âIt's not only the middle children left out. Anyway, I am in the middle. Cherish is the youngest, not me. She gets to do what she wants. Sheâs still allowed to work at the cafĂ©, and Bliss can't even do that.â
Cherish had tried to be sympathetic to Favor, but mentioning her job at the cafĂ© was going too far. Levi could very easily put his foot down and say she had to quit. âYou're being mean to everybody now. Mamm, canât you tell her to go to her room?â
âI'll tell you all to go to your rooms in a minute if you don't all be quiet.â
Bliss said, âI think everyone should be happy for Hope getting a lovely quilt and being married to a lovely man.â
Hope smiled.Â
Ada looked at Samuel, who had been quiet through the meal. âDo you have anything to say about anything, Samuel?â
âJah, I do.â He looked at Hope. âIâm happy that you are marrying Fairfax. Youâve both known each other for a suitable time and you seem like youâre well matched.â He then looked at Hope. âIâm also pleased youâre going to receive a lovely quilt made by loving hands.â
Ada gave a simple nod, showing she was satisfied.
Hope smiled at him. âThank you, Samuel.â
Cherish did her best to shrug off her irritation with Favor. âAnd this won't be the only quilt weâll make. Weâll keep making them. I'm sure I'm going to enjoy the process.âÂ
Levi smiled. âI'm glad thatâs sorted, isn't it, Favor?â
Without looking up from her plate, she said, âI guess so. Is there any more chicken?â
âNo, there is not. How about a smile?â Mamm asked.
Favor looked up at her and offered a fake smile.
âThat's better. That's a lot better.â
But it wasn't.
* * *
When Debbie went to her room that night, she did something sheâd been putting off. She wrote a heartfelt letter to Johnâs parents. She told them everything she and John had talked about for their future. Also, she expressed how she was unhappy about keeping the marriage a secret for so long, but John had insisted they do so, and he kept delaying telling the news.Â
It was hard to reveal the truth to his parents, but that was precisely what had happened.Â
She also mentioned why she had continued the ruse after he died. She hoped theyâd understand that she didnât want them to be disappointed in their late son when they found out heâd been deceiving them.Â
After sheâd written the facts just as she remembered them, she added that she was pregnant and was having Johnâs baby.
It was a sad letter to write, but she wanted the whole truth to come out. When she finished, she pushed the letter into an envelope and addressed it. Then she licked the glue strip on the envelope and sealed it. Lastly, she stuck on a stamp that Favor had given her. Hopefully, Wilma would allow her to send it tomorrow so she wouldnât have a chance to second guess what she had written.